and then life gets the shits...

sorry about the title. It's a bit graphic :)

I have a project based class that I forgot I had a project due today. There goes 8% of my grade. Skipped classes today for almost no reason. Scary to anyone else? Shouldn't be. I'm sure there was a reason it's just not coming to me. I wrote a poem-ish thing about smoke today which was a great relief to write. I've never liked smokers (cigarette or weed... hookah is OK :) but I have I've always gotten a strange sensation when I see a camp fire's smoke, incense, or hookah smoke.

Anywho, been reading an interesting book, the fraternity is going great (president elections coming up next week!), and been taking life one day at a time. Graduation is within grasp... now what?

Time to get back to it instead of writing about it ;)

Smoke

with its passionate embers

smoke reminds me of life

it's dead ashes tell the story

of battles fought and love's long strife

who cannot see what the fire wishes to be?

rarely does the smoke not dance, prancing in and through it's space

revealing the invisible and indivisible forces of wind.

with smoke I peer into the greater being

slowing time just long enough to let me dance too

sometimes I think smoke is the answer to conquering the 4th dimension

and of its seduction?

imagine out of my mouth white bed sheets flowing

always rising, always changing, but dancing to the words that come.

as they grace the air of my words, as they ride the rhythm of my breath

I feel the fire's warmth deep inside my chest.

breath in deep. breath in long. breath in life.

now breath out slowly enough to see the moment that just past.

Smoke is just as fleeting as life, as time, as the moment.

Weekend Warrior

The news lately:

Last weekend I was caught in Allen, Tennessee at Lake Dale Hollow with dear friends Tauna, KD, Moffat, and friends. Papa Aspley wasn't in for the ride so we couldn't pull the house boat out which was ight but the only blow of the weekend was NO jetski/skiboat.  No wakeboarding naked, no pulling my arm out again, no throwing folks off the jetski, no sunset runs... it might have been a safer move but most who know me know I don't favor such silly moves. All this meant that we were kept to the choices of staying on the houseboat or taking out the kayak... more choices than I even needed. We spent hours sunbathing, reading, playing games, going on kayak adventures, and sneaking in drinks. Mad props to ms. tauna. I LOVE going up to that houseboat.

This weekend I tried to keep low but ended up partying both nights so sunday is again the catch up day. Recruitment for SP is at an all time critical moment so I have to push hard and rope em in. The pressure of SP is sometimes crippling in a very unique way which has taught me a lot about how to work under pressur. It's not like the kind of pressure you get when you have a project due. It's a pressure with no tangible end in sight. Sure the new year leaves me titleless in SP but that doesn't mean anything as of right now in releaving the pressure. Only increases it.

School's some TOUGH stuff but since thats redundant I'll leave out the details.

Love to my friends. I'm learning to embrace these relationships because it actually fuels me most of the time even though I'm scared of working myself tired then trying to give energy to my friends.

Brazil: 8.5 months

 

It doesn't seem like much from the photo but the house boat is INCREDIBLE. Thanks to my friend tauna for the invite. If you're my fb buddy you can dig through my photos and find an album from 2-3 years ago from my last trip here. INCREDIBLE. also got one of the worst injuries of my life from that trip (refer to shirtless picture from around that time... look at the arm... the whole arm...)... if you want to know the story ask me.
Alright. just keepin' the friends updated.
-me
i am at lake dale hollow in tennesee/kentucky. How swanky.
picture time!

Welcome to Struggle.com!
I'm just going to put it all on the table. I have little energy left for tact in this week.
School's kicking my ass, I had a cousin die in a car accident last saturday, and my very special girlfriend and I broke up, in respective order of severity (last being greatest) of stress.
She got in and she got in deep. That's always the best part and worst part of a good relationship. It was (and is) and beautiful relationship that was very fulfilling, very deep, and very meaningful. I think we both realize that it is the right thing to do as the distance was too much and the time too little but that doesn't make it any less obvious that the relationship was monumental. I'll rarely be happier in a time of my life than when I'm with someone and I'll rarely be more sad than when I'm leaving someone great. It is the ebb and tide of my learning heart but the waves only get bigger. I pray for her heart, I pray for mine, and I pray that she gets what she deserves in life which is nothing but good things.
As far as my cousin's death I've struggled again with mortality's threat. I had a great grandma die and an uncle not long before that a few entries ago so you can read more on that. More than anything it hard to see and hear about my family grieve. I pray for their hearts.
Schools difficulty is a different creature nowadays. Quantity is at an all time low and quality is at an all time high. 9 hours of the hardest damn classes I've ever seen.
Till next time, dear friends...

VP Debate!
I'm not going to comment on who I thought kicked butt and who got pwned on international TV but I WILL say my favorite part:
after all is said and done both Palin and Biden shake hands, say "Thank You" a billion times, and their ENTIRE families come on stage... not for a photo shoot, but just to meet each other. Awkward...
In the middle of all this Biden takes a free moment to discuss something with Palin that was REAL serious lookin'... I can only imagine the shit talking that was going on. "You're going down, skank" "After you, geezer."
i heart you VP debate,
-bucci
P.S. - I can't believe that no one just said "BULLSHIT!"
P.P.S. - Watching the after show there were some DEEP cuts at each other. Muahaha... nice.